"Somewhere in The Middle"

In Psalm 1 it says: "Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on this law he meditates day and night...."

Many times we find oursleves knowing what is right and what is wrong, and having to make a choice. A lot of times we go toward what is wrong instead of what is right. We get stuck in the ways of the world many times, but at the same time we find ourselves wanting to do what God wants us to do. It's natural for us to follow in the ways of the world since we are all born into sin, but how far can we push it? How long can we go knowing that we are walking in sin, but at the same time we know what is right, without surrendering our life to him?

I can't help but to ask myself what if I completely surrendered my life to God? What if I was no longer caught in the middle of right and wrong and instead of just seeing the differences, I lived out the life that God has planned for me? Living the life of surrender consists of always, no matter what saying "yes Lord". This is a really hard thing for me to do. I am not always comfortable with what God is saying to me or with what God wants for me. I am learning... it's hard... but slowly I am learning to hold on to "Not my will, but YOURS be done" and to just give it all to God.

"Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control
Fearless warriors in a picket fence,
reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences,
the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle

Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves
Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You'll find me
Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You're by my sideLoving me even on these nights when I'm caught in the middle"
-Casting Crowns